sick!!!

So tired today. I slept through the whole morning. I totally ache man. My thigh and butt really hurts. Its so hard walking not to mention stairs and toilets. Gee...But however its another good experience. Ahahahaha... ate a lot today. Getting fatter and this means its back to diet mode.

Sometimes i wonder why do i care so much on weight. Again why do people care so much about their weight, height, looks, etc etc...can't society just accept people the way they are? What's wrong being fat or tall or short or thin? Sigh, if people dun mind i dun think a guy or girl would bother dieting or losing weight, or even artificial surgeries, etc. If everyone is equal in everyone's eyes how nice would that be.

Discrimination...is that what it is? Ahahaha...been reading to much I think. Damn it. Why am i complaining when i myself am so concern with my weight and i feel guilty eating or drinking certain stuff. Then again.....

Another statement... love is a commitment for life. Hmm...i wonder how people see it? well not that i disagree..hell men i totally agree if not i would have flung myself at any men which i fancy. But the problem is...how would i know if i really love someone? Does the i miss that person so much and i want to see him everyday and crying fits the picture? Sort of experience that before and yet after a few years of not seeing or communicating it faded. So does the theory still implies? Next falling in love does include the sense of security right?? My dream man MUST have this quality you know like i feel safe and no worries around that person. But is hard to come by people like that. That must be an extremely high requirement. Loyalty and trust must fit it somewhere too. Jeez, I dun really understand it myself.

I'll think more of that issue; one day when i am ready maybe I will understand it. Today, a waitress cought me red handed murdering the poor pile of butter. Ahahaha...i just out of normal reaction stab the butter in the middle with a knife and the waitress was like stunt then ask if me and Celina are done with our meal. Ahahaha...i myself look embaressed i think. Celina say the look of my face was priceless. Ahahaha...interesting day today. That salesman cheated again. I was not able to have a peek on my "baby". He gave weird excuses again.

I think i have lots of spelling error. I seem to be sleepy today. Keep dozing off every minute i get. Ahahaha...and again laughing to myself. My nose irritationis uncomfortable too. Makes me dizzy.